reaction

do you ever just get the urge to do something, simply for the reaction of others? i see it alot in myself. times when i sit in a crowded room, at a party or church, class or ... anywhere. maybe an opinion is expressed a the consensus in the group is for it, and even if i mostly agree - i want to disagree! or maybe you know someone and you feel very strongly attracted to them, but have no idea how they feel, there's this urge to do something extreme - positive or negative - just to get the reaction.

i like to see people's reactions to eachother too. couples are always fun, especially in social settings, seeing them observe eachother and remark on the other's behaviour. it's usually really cute, sometimes a little odd, but usually cute.

i'm getting reintegrated into FHU culture... alot of that means getting used to being around peers again, as well as some quite younger than me. it means observing others who are learning how to define themselves and learning who they like to associate with. then there's always the coupling and uncoupling drama. i forgot the mindset here of - as soon as you date someone, people look for an engagement ring. never used to bother me, now i'm like - take your time peoples!!!

hmm. so it's saturday night in my little room, and i'm going to put red to bed. church in the morning. that makes me happy - worhip at jack's creek and seeing my friends there... reasons why sunday is my favorite day of the week