3.28.2007

down time/s

it's been a kind of down day ... the sun is out, and it's raining, the sidewalk is yellow with pollen and i feel drained and dry. it's hard for me to understand exactly why the sadness creeps in when it does. life is overflowingly full, i'm needed and plugged in, i have friends - really great ones - and i'm just a little sad, and very tired.

my soul feels stretched thin again, and i've been longing for solitude and time with God alone. peggy smith and melanie morris are leading a women's class at the creek now. the book we're reading: sacred rhythms by ruth haley barton, has come at just the right time.

how do we work through these dead times, the times when everything feels distant and strange? i feel a step off, in everything ... but somehow, i always weave my way back onto the path and breathe a sigh of relief when i do. but what do you do, what did i do last time, to work out of it? maybe it's not me at all, maybe it's something else that pulls me back.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You are figuring it out. Keep doing what you do, it is working. The Source of all is the right direction. Can't appreciate the highs without the lows. You have come so far and give so much to so many. I love you.