high

the play is over, and i didn't want it to end... i'm on a "theatre high" right now i think. we had our theatre majors debriefing for "winter's tale", and thursday we have spotlight awards - the final touch to an incredible semester performance-wise for me.

sometimes i really doubt myself and my choice to pursue theatre. in fact, when i came back this semester, i told dr. t that i wasn't sure i'd major in theatre anymore. winter's tale was my test run. i felt like if i did this play and it ended up feeling like pride and prejudice part deux, then i didn't need to pursue a career in the performing arts. and... somehow, magically, it WASN'T that way anymore.

i was telling susan h. that i feel like such a geek because i don't want the process of making the show, and then performing it, to end. even with all the stress of getting papers and tests done, and the exhaustion of the late nights and drain of focusing and playing hermione, i loved it. and it's no longer about impressing anyone, or getting approval, it's about telling the story and making one incredible moment after another... it's curtain call, and the genuine joyful triumph each one of us - cast and crew - feels as we grip eachother's hands and take a bow.

and now, there's a possibility of a SUMMER SHOW... dr. t asked us how many would be here this summer, and if we'd be interested in doing one. yeah!! and then, and then and then... i'm going to NEW YORK CITY for a week, and getting 3 hours credit for it too.

i feel so blessed right now, that God has provided me with this haven, this place full of friends, love and the joy of doing something i am passionate about. and now, i have to finish this paper. =)