observations

and so, this is what i've noticed lately:

-- people usually aren't thinking what you think they're thinking.
-- if you ask for help in doing something, you just might get it.
-- it's not that hard to just get up and DO what you're supposed to do. in fact it's WAY better than avoiding said tasks.
-- when you're busy doing life, you don't have as much time to blog.

lately, i've been battling some fierce anger and resentment, i suppose it's natural when you consider that recovering from a divorce and restarting your life doesn't happen overnight. something hit me over the head the last week though, it's an old realization that i'm convinced HAS to reoccur on a regular basis in my life.

it was this: when i'm far away from God, and far away from knowing how i really feel, i am miserable. those two things are so connected. for me, anger is this shield that i use to protect myself from ME. when i'm angry, i feel justified in it, and indulge myself completely in the process. (boy i wish i had that commitment in some other areas!) and, when i'm busy being angry and resentful, i don't have time to listen to God and i'm certain that i'm not a very attractive vessel for His Spirit.

the result of these realizations for me is a conviction that i need to carve out more time with God, and more time working towards a healthy life. so, at the moment i am sitting in the library recovering from a good workout and relishing a peaceful day that began with God and hopefully will end with Him too.