hands

"Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are continually before me."
Isaiah 49:16

"And the LORD said, "Behold, there is a place by me where you shall stand on the rock, and while my glory passes by I will put you in a cleft of the rock, and I will cover you with my hand until I have passed by. Then I will take away my hand, and you shall see my back, but my face shall not be seen."
Exodus 33:21-23

attributed to augustine

"In necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, in omnibus autem caritas."

or, in things necessary unity, in doubtful things liberty and in all things love. i really like this quote, it was on my friend josh's blog and it really reflects how i've been feeling about some things i've seen going on lately.

i especially like the last part: in all things love. not gushy mushy love but real love that accepts people where they are and challenges them to grow without crushing or stunting. it makes me heartsick to see so many people i love and care about get ugly over things they disagree on. yes, it's necessary to disagree and to discuss, but the manner in which we do so as christians should be markedly different than that of the world's.

well, there's my recent two cents worth.

home

henderson really is a home for me. after all, i have lived here on and off for nearly six years. even this little dorm room seems homey to me. it's mine, and it's in the place i want to be right now. i like that. it was good to come "home" from kansas after spring break.


we had house church today at jack's creek. yum - and that's not just about the food. i love every person in that congregation, even the ones i don't really know well. i suppose that's because i feel so welcome and loved there that i can't help but love back. that's how family is supposed to be, right? we had an easter egg hunt after lunch, and devotional under the trees, and on top of that - chara visited! i was so happy to see her and it was such a great surprise. i just love her to bits.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

--e.e. cummings

beware the ides

it's the fifteenth. some of you know that tomorrow would have been my fourth wedding anniversary.

...

that's about how i'm letting myself feel.

so let me take this time to say thank you to each and every one of you who have held my hands up as i weathered that storm. thank you for praying for not only me, but for jared too. life really does go on even if it is never the same. God is the same and i will continue to marvel and praise Him for His love.

an ideal husband

watch this movie. it will make you happy.